2016 Look Back & A fresh Canvass for 2017

2016 for me did not start how you would expect most years to start which would be looking to what the year was to bring and making the most out of it.

I got thrown  into the deep end due to my own actions, i was full of self hate, i put myself down, on top of feeling very depressed and not seeing a point to my life.
I think the most Frustrating part of this year, has been trying to get help to discover why i am the way i am. This Including My Dyslexia  & Dyspraxia which i got told by a few people i more then likely have.
The problem has been with living in lincolnshire, no funding is out there to diagnose this,
which leaves me more and more frustrated that i want to be fixed and as society puts it "Normal ".
This year has been the most Challenging, as i have had to adapt my life in so many ways.
at the start of March due to backing from support workers and friends, I took the step to start my own business.
Going through the prince's Trust  Program, Networking with Great Talents, putting my Business Plan Together and starting my Journey.
I am not ashamed to admit that the biggest threat to my business starting up, has not been, my skills or the competition. It has been my mental health, along with other issues.
If i had to say a month where things started to turn around then that month shall be September.
At the end of august I moved into a much nicer place, and every month it feels more and more like home.
I decided that in order to A. Look Good & B have a more Business like approach, a change in clothes was needed.
This also made me feel a bit more happier, and still to this day people treat me differently and take the time to hear me out. Its Strange sometimes how we humans treat people if they dont look the part and then wear nicer clothes and suddenly people want to talk to you (; AHH Life .
That month was also the time i went to Nottingham and started learning More of what my camera can do and improving my skills.
October quickly started when i heard about the closure of Grantham A & E ,
After Reading everything that had gone off, i really want to help out, the only way i knew how.
So I went to events, took Photos and Videos and slowly, Gained a community around myself, where people praised my work, showed support, and invited me to important stuff in the months to come.
Things where looking good until my depression kicked in and i had some bad weeks.
After that life picked up again.
as that month was also when The Grantham tennis club course Started put on and funded by the mental health Services.
wow is the words best to describe the course, it was the best thing that happened  to me this year.
I got to talk to people, learn skills, see amazing talent, and most important was having the best staff in the world look after you and make you feel a part of the community.
So October, till the end of December i would say have been a life changer for me.
so many business people i have met, networked with, so many events and opportunities i have had.
Although this year hasnt been the year i expected and sometimes may not have wanted, its stunned me how much support and community i have.
I just wish the funding was there to help so much more as i want to achieve many many things in life.
which leads nicely into my plans for 2017 !!!!

Fitness

I look back at my life to only see how much i let it slide by, i was to settled in my surroundings and in my life to see i was missing out on so much.
I let my fitness slide away.
towards the end of 2016 I joined Grantham running club which i dropped out after 3 runs,
My fitness was not good so I joined a gym which i go to 4-5 times a week as well as using my housemates weights.

My goal for 2017 is to Join Grantham running club again and be able to improve every week, keep up with my fitness levels, and to play even more sports.

YouTube Channels

I relaunched my own channel in 2016 However it didn't deliver the content i hoped to do.
so in 2017 now i have much better editing software i hope to turn my channel, into games, vlogs, and fun videos.

in 2016 i also started DMP WORLD although again it has not gone the way i hoped, my saying i use the most which is so true everything happens for a reason.
I am learning more and more about after effects, the changes the channel has already took has been stunning. Visually stunning that is (:

My Business channel, in 2017 is going to be much better presented, with Huge Brand companies.
To go with working on the videos will be amazing Graphics and much more.

Photography

2016 started to peak what i can do, its my soul and passion and its who i am.
its sad to say a camera can only do so much, or rather the places you go to.
so for me its exploring more, travelling, finding new and innovative ways to create master pieces.

I could go on forever how much 2017 needs to be different.

many say a new year is like a blank canvass but to me it really is,
the events that happened in 2016 made me who i am.
at times i wished things didn't happen.
but thats what made 2016 special and so different for me.
In a way i really dont know how 2017 will be for the first time in my life.
I feel empty because although i do have things i want to fight for in the mist of it all I dont.
In order to make my dreams become real, i need to have more passion, drive, motivation, skills & knowledge then ever before.
I wont rest until everything i mentioned for 2017 is done.
Over and out
Drop the mic (;
p.s if you get that reference